• We lived in a big house. In the basement there was a boiler, - it was huge- down in a pit, surrounded by protective metal bars to stop children falling in. It thrummed and it hummed like a big monster, - it was terrifying and I was fascinated in a way that felt abnormal,- the monster had its links inside me. The fascination and horror combined and my body responded- it was as if a neural pathway that would normally connect to pleasure had wrongly connected pleasure with this eerie mechanical power. There was a pull from inside me that pulled me into the machine and into its dehumanising process.